Pay off

So with the Holidays looming around the corner, everything gets put into perspective. Everything superficial comes to light, but its not always a bad thing. I used to always hate Christmas. Still hold on to that sentiment actually. However, this year it isn't affecting me that much. As this year draws to an end, I actually just noticed how much as changed since it began.

For the first time this semester I didn't have a panic attack. Perhaps because I was expecting it was why it never happened. A watched pot never boils, they say. I've watched many pots, what can I say? I like to cook. They always boil when they are good and ready. I can go into all the complex details of water boiling. I am going to make a career about such menial things.

But, back to the point. I didn't have a nervous breakdown, but not because I did anything to prevent it from happening. In fact, I threw myself in knowing that I might not make it; that I might not have enough in me to finish it and return unscathed. Yet, with all the trouble, I still managed it and am all the better for it. I won't lie and say that I was always in control. I wasn't. I know I wasn't. But I was hopeful. I did work very hard. Guess that was all that really was required of me.

o, next semester I fully intend on throwing myself head first into my studies and my plans. I have my head held high and my eyes bright. Sure, I know by the end of it, my head will be dragging so that my chin is scraping the ground and my eyes will barely be visible among the puffiness and the shadows. Still, that's life. That's what all people say. I am no different, so I will not come up with anything witty to counter it.

It just became apparent to me that my bit of advice, Ihave always lived by. So it remains that I will live as if there were no tomorrow, love as if I had never been hurt and dance as if no one were watching me.

As for what I got? I ot 4 B's and an A. Could have been better, but I was expecting so much WORSE! For that, I am grateful. And that, ladies and gentlemen is what this holiday season should be all about.